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❝ Missing you were just part of moving on.
( posted on Saturday, September 28, 2013 @ 8:48 PM )
I guess missing you were part of moving on. I wonder, how can someone who used to be so special to me became just a memory now. Someone who understands me, gave in to me, makes me smile whenever I'm feeling down. So much, just so much. I don't want to do this. I don't want to give up. But I need to do this to protect myself from the lies. Is it okay when you are not okay but you have to pretend you are happy while your heart is just shattering again and again. The feeling when I'm alone, thinking about how many times you have lied, thinking that I'm a fool to believe your lies. I gave you many chances. I tried to understand you... But I guess I'm too tired of forgiving you. Sorry I can't devote myself to someone who can't devote to me. I do not need to worry that you will be sad or whatsoever. Because you will be fine and happier without me. I can't be softhearted anymore. I guess as times goes by, the pain will eventually be gone, right? ❝ Pain.
( posted on Tuesday, September 24, 2013 @ 10:03 PM )
Hello readers! ^^ It's been a while since I blogged. So I'm back here blogging and keeping an update on my life right now.I've been craving for hot chocolate lately. And finally I drank it just now ~ :D Accompanied with custard soft cake. Little happy things in life! So... It's my 2 months holiday now. Have been working, accompanying him, meet up with friends and enjoying every single seconds of my holiday. Haha. When it's schooling period, I will hope for the holidays to be here. And when the holidays are here, I wish that I'm studying now. Haha #nolife A little update. As some of you know, I've moved on from crew leader to barista. Life's difficult. Because I will have to start everything from scratch and adapt to the changes. The expectations are higher but I'm managed to learn a lot of new stuffs and made new friends there. However, happiness doesn't last. Conflicts arises, people leave. Somehow, it's just part of life. For once, you used to be so close with the person who you think you knew. And the next day, *pows*, you are just a friend-close to stranger. Okay, kinda off topic. Yep, so have been trying to improve on pouring of the drinks and making sure the customer pays for what they deserve. So yeah.. Met new people. The usual questions they will ask me, "what happened to your hand? why you do this to hurt youself?" I will usually just reply with a smile and said "that's the past, I used to be foolish.." And to my horror, there are people who is like me, self-hurting. I have no idea how to comfort them. But someone told me "Everyone will definitely face problems in life, it's just up to them on how they will face it. Some may run, some may just let it all out by crying.. And some will just hurt themself". I understand how they feels. The physical pain is actually so much less painful than the pain I felt inside. Therefore, it kinda sustain the internal pain inside. But it's foolish. So I've decided to change to prevent people that cares about me to worry and to prevent people to think that I'm insane. So I have pick up other ways to prevent myself to have negative thoughts again. Running, venting out by allowing myself to cool down and most importantly, I'm lucky to have someone to talk to whenever I'm feeling down. But at times, I will usually just stare into blank, hoping for a change. Hoping that I'm actually wasn't who am I. |
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